So, in my time in the Bible belt, I have noticed a phenomenon that I am only now beginning to understand: the church-camp high. For the uninitiated amongst you, this is a common experience within the US Christian church: an individual, usually in high school, goes with the youth group at his church (see 1 below) to a gathering of other youth, usually at a beach, for a week. During this week, this young man listens to 2-3 sermons (lectures about Jesus and things related to Him) a day, sings worship songs to Jesus, spends time with other Christians, and flirts with as many girls from other youth groups as he possibly can. At many of these camps, on the last night, there is an extended time of worship during which there is an invitation given to become a follower and disciple of Jesus Christ. After this, there is a lot of singing. I mean a lot of singing. Like an hour or more. And amazingly, hundreds of otherwise ADD, hormone-crazed high-schoolers remain engaged the whole time. When they return home, most go one of two directions. Either they are content to let that week stand as the climax of their spiritual lives and reminisce over it like a 40 year old dreaming about his “glory days” in high school athletics, or they become “church-camp/conference addicts” who live from one week-long conference to another like drug addicts looking for another hit. For years this phenomenon has baffled me, and I have struggled to make peace with it. Today, something clicked.
I would like to pause here and say that what follows is
nothing new. Men much wiser and more eloquent have expressed these ideas before
(see Piper, John and Lewis, C.S.). I am writing about them because writing is a
good way for me to solidify things in my mind. That being said, onward we go…
Why does this phenomenon exist, and why does it seem to
exist only in the church? Because that’s the way God made us, and it doesn’t,
respectively.
Let me address the second statement first: that this
phenomenon only exists in the church. This statement, simply put, is a lie that
church kids believe because they never step far enough outside of their
Christian bubble to interact (gasp!) with non-Christians. All of humanity
experiences this. For example (2) let’s take romance. Not the amazing,
sanctifying, Christ-reflecting, loving-when-you-would-rather-walk-away, only-clearly-embodied-in-marriage
kind of romance. I mean puppy-love, first-kiss, holding-hands romance. We have
all been there. It’s a great place to be. Here’s the problem: it passes. It goes
away and it invariably leaves us wanting more. But even that topic is too
broad, so let’s zoom in further: the first kiss. It’s great. There is a reason that
there are days of music on iTunes devoted to this single moment of a
relationship. Contained within is a rush of adrenaline and endorphins that is
rarely paralleled in human experience. What’s more, it’s good. I mean Divinely
good. God created it. Romance, kissing, and (brace yourselves) even sex are
God’s creation. He made them, and He made them to be as pleasurable as they are
(if not more pleasurable…but no time for that discussion now). Sex is a
pre-Fall activity. Let that sink in. The problem comes in when we try to make
these activities gods, take them out of their God-given limits, and return to
them over and over to satisfy our souls. I’ll explain. We feel that rush of
adrenaline and endorphins associated with the first kiss, and we are
satisfied…temporarily. That feeling doesn’t last, so we go back for a second
kiss, only this time isn’t quite as good as the first. Next, we put our hands
where they don’t belong. This gives us a pretty great rush, but that fades too,
so we start removing clothing…and on and on it goes. Eventually it ends in
regret, addiction, dependency, and a string of broken hearts and
relationships. Why? Because we found
something that, for a moment, satisfied the longing in our souls, so we made it
the thing around which we based our lives (which is called worship, by the way)
and we lived for the next “hit” so to speak. The problem is, it failed, and
down with it crashed our lives.
Now to answer the second question: Why does this phenomenon
exist? Let me answer the bigger question, and I will answer the smaller
question in the process. The bigger question is not “why does the church-camp high
exist,” but rather, “why do the church-camp high, the first-kiss high, and all
the other momentary highs in life exist? And why the let-down afterwards? And
why the longing within our hearts to return to that moment in time?” The answer: because we were created that way.
We were made to experience immense love, pleasure, intimacy, and joy. We were
made to feel swept up in something bigger than ourselves, to feel overwhelmed
by a thing we can’t control. This experience is intrinsically good, but only if
it leads to its God-intended end. You see, we stop short. Whether it’s
returning in our minds to a Florida convention center or the hood of a pick-up
truck under the stars, we (as C.S. Lewis would say) are far too easily pleased.
We revel in the experience as if that was the end in itself. But it’s not. It is the first step on a path
the leads to the Substance of which it is only a shadow. We were made for God,
and nothing else will do. As I said before, God made kissing, relationships,
sex, sermons, beaches, and music. And He made them out of His own character and
imagination. They reflect Him and they point to Him (3). That initial taste was
meant to prime our desires, not satiate them. We were created to go, “that
created thing was good…God created it…I bet relationship with Him is more epic,
awesome, satisfying, and fulfilling than that experience…That sounds good…I’ll
have that.” But we don’t. Instead we act
like fools, and we return to the moment of experience rather than its source. Let
me use another relationship example to drive home my point. Our reaction to
pleasure and to experiences of God is like meeting an incredible girl in a
coffee shop, going out on an epic date, getting her number, then instead of
calling her for another date, going back to the coffee shop in hopes of getting
that same experience all over again. We have access to the “source of our joy,”
so to speak, but instead we return the vehicle through which the joy came. It’s
foolish, but it is fallen human nature, and we do it all the time. Instead of
turning and worshiping God, we worship the thing He made.
Now to the big point: relationship with the God that created
us is, in the end, the ultimate fulfillment of every (holy) longing and craving
that we find within our souls, and that relationship is only found through
Jesus Christ, not any created thing (4). So, if we would be true Hedonists and
not just “lazy, half-hearted creatures fooling about with drink and sex, when
true pleasure if offered us,” we would go to the Source of the pleasure, and
not just our first brush with it. If you are a church kid, you know how this
works. If not, it works by accepting Christ’s offer of letting His death pay
for your sins, His life stand as your righteousness, and His Sonship replace
your rebellion. It means entering into a
relationship with the God of the Universe and following His Son wherever He
would lead you (that’s a daily thing, not a one-time-at-church-camp thing, by
the way). May we have the wisdom know what is true Pleasure-seeking, and the
courage to lose our selves in its finding.
Christ, let us find You amidst our pleasure and joy, and
even more so in our suffering. Amen.
1.
I am going to use the male pronoun here because
at no point do I even want to imply that I understand the inner workings of the
female mind at any stage of life, let alone high-school…it is a wonderful
thing, don’t get me wrong…I just don’t understand it
2.
Note: if you kissed dating goodbye, feel free to
skip this paragraph and avoid the scandal within
3.
What is amazing is that the creation I have
listed only reflect a miniscule part of Him. In the account of creation,
male-female romantic relationship, which Hollywood would have us make the crux
of our entire lives, only gets about two lines…but back to the point at hand
4.
An interesting fact about created things: they
give us a glimpse into the character and attributes of their Creator. If a
created thing is pleasurable, wouldn’t that seem to imply that the Creator
values pleasure? Or, if the created thing is beautiful, doesn’t that imply that
the Creator values beauty? Not only that, if He can create that finite beauty
or pleasure, wouldn’t it be fair to assume that He can create things that are
even more beautiful and pleasurable, or that within Himself is a limitless
store of pleasure and beauty from which the created things spring? Let that
blow your mind for a minute. Maybe we should worship Him instead of the stuff
He creates. Just a thought