So, I feel like I need to state some things from the outset.
First, I am by no means a “writer”, so don’t come here expecting great works of
art. Unless you consider a four-year-old’s finger painting a “work of art”. Second,
I tend write in short sentence fragments, especially when I am excited. Prepare
yourself. Third, I have intention to be as honest as I possibly can here.
Henceforth, I will refer to this as “real church” in honor of Matt Chandler.
Example: I know as a man, I should probably say that I am not at all scared
right now. But, if we can have real church, I am mildly terrified. I have never
been away from my friends and family for nine months straight before. I am going
to places that consistently have reports of civil war. These things are scary.
I am not above admitting that.
Now that we have that out of the way, on to the fun stuff (Oh,
by the way, I LOVE lists, so expect to see a lot of those over the next nine
months). Today’s post will be for those of you who have ever wondered what
thoughts/feelings/emotions go through someone who is about to board a plane to
fly to a foreign country for nine months. In no particular order:
1. 1. Excitement. I am going to do what I love for
nine straight months. I am going to meet people who have very similar goals and
convictions to mine. We are going to cut people open in order to heal them. We
are going to tell them about Jesus, the only One who can really heal them. All
of these things excite me more than I can express.
2.
2. Fear. See above.
3.
Anxiety. My flight is leaving a good hour late.
What if I miss my connection in Paris. What if none of my bags make it to Niger
(a very real possibility). What if…you get the picture. Anxiety is tempting. It
lets me feel like I have some control. Luckily, I know the One who is actually
in control. Also, I’m kinda secretly hoping I do end up in Paris overnight. I
can imagine worse fates.
4.
3. Curiosity. I have never been to most of the
places I am going this year. Therefore, I have absolutely no clue what to
expect. See number 1.
5.
4. Sadness. This year I will miss graduating with my
best friends in medical school (Ben and Dan) as well as being in one of my best
friend’s (Chris) weddings. Frankly, both of those things kinda stink. I will
also miss Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc with the family. Not pumped about that.
6.
5. Peace. This one I have trouble explaining. Have
you ever just felt like everything was going to work out, even though you have
no objective reason for feeling that way, and especially when you have great
objective evidence to the contrary? I have felt that about this trip, probably
since day one. That can only be the work of the Holy Spirit.
7.
6. Humor. I
forgot my stethoscope in Wilmington. We had to do a drive-by stethoscope purchase
in Cary. The stewardess (I’m on the plane now, FYI) just handed me a 16 pack of
those airplane cookies for “the kids at the mission” who apparently “love
those.” Not kidding. That just happened. And she has an awesome European accent
that I can’t place, which makes every conversation with her that much more
challenging to follow/awesome. You really can’t make this stuff up. I think I’m
going to enjoy this trip.
That’s probably all you can handle for now. That is certainly
all I intend to type. Thank you all again for your love, support, and prayers.
They mean more than you know.
In Him,
Josh
Update: I am safely in Niger. We are hanging out at a restaurant
in Niamey waiting to fly out to Galmi hospital.
One more fun story from the plane. I boarded in NYC for
Paris on Air France. I had no idea that the vast majority of those on the plane
spoke minimal English. I arrived at my seat, and a gentleman approached me and
asked “are you lonely?” Many responses ran through my mind, but the one that
came out was “excuse me?” And, of course, he simply repeated himself. It was
around this time I realize (let’s be honest: hoped he was asking) and said “do
you mean ‘traveling alone?’” He confirmed my hopes, and we subsequently traded
seats so he could sit with his wife. Needless to say, I laughed about this to
myself for the next few minutes. Oh, and neither of my checked bags made it…luckily
I packed a change of clothes. Such is life…that being said, I am sooooo happy
to be back in Africa. I didn’t realize how much I missed it until I was riding
in the taxi to the guesthouse from the airport. More on that in another post…
Josh, loved your post. "Real church" is all that matters to "real people". Your honesty and faith will inspire many. Praying for you :)
ReplyDeleteHow FUN!! You are finally there!! Cannot wait to read your updates!! Praying that our Great God will amaze you with His grace and power over this next 9 months AND that He will be molding your servant's heart!! Keeping you lifted to His glorious throne of grace!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your postings! Am praying for you, for the Lord to use you in great ways, and to remind you of His presence through each step of the way. God bless you! - Sue V
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